Do you remember that night
I’m quite sure that you don’t
But it was another night spent
With me begging for your attention
Isn’t it almost ironic, sweetie, that the girl
Showered with affections
Is jumping and begging for five minutes of your time
But I’ve never been so close to an angel before
So can you really blame me
And we spent this night close
You teased me, and I think when I wasn’t looking
You ran your hand very carefully through my hair
Like you didn’t want to ruin something more
And I shivered and trembled
And convinced myself that it was the wind
And nothing more
But then again it feels like you are everywhere
So I really wouldn’t know
And on the way home
Your leg was pressed so hard against mine
It felt like a desperate kiss
Like the type of kiss where you push yourself
So hard into another person
That you feel their teeth and
How uncontrollably their hearts beat out of their chests
But your breath was smooth and calm
And your arm was very carefully moved to touch
Any other place than me
It seems that the closer we get
The least likely you are to speak and to say those pretty words
And you hide behind the web at night, and you send me words
That you never follow through with
And I suppose a part of me should be happy
That you can’t look into my eyes and lie
But, sweetie, ignorance is bliss
Just say that you love me, and things will be fine
It’s a white lie, yes white
Like the roses I think you may have sent me one day
But I’ll never be sure
Or the colors of the sheets we laid on
As you said you were sorry, as you explained
Your story to me
But I wanted you back and to care and to
Maybe love me, or feel something for me
At the least, I wanted to see you cry
And, sweetie, do you remember, when we arrived at my house
You didn’t look in my direction as you said goodnight
I thanked you for the CD, the one you bought for me
The one I could very well afford, but I wanted you to pay
To give it some appearance of a date
(Even though it really wasn’t
And my closest friend has been waiting on you
For so long)
And also so I could have
Another reason to be connected to you
Because with us, we’re connected through a web
Of debts and grudges
And I think you hold more than I do
You play your hand better, and you seem to always be
Sitting pretty on a royal flush
And I got out of the car
Trying to hold on to that one bit of grace you gave me
You nodded your head, and I think
You almost smiled
And I thought that maybe you’d ask me to stay
Or at least be the perfect gentleman
And kiss my hand with your lips
The ones I just need to feel to be okay
And in a second, we were kids again
Oblivious to pain and the real world
That’s how it feels when I am with you
Ignorant and blissful
But, I’m sure you don’t remember that feeling
Not after all of this